Year end

It's the end of 2010.
1/1/11 is coming.

The year 2010 was not bad.
Nothing really fantastic happened but nothing bad happen either.
I guess nothing bad is a form of good.
This year saw a pretty significant transition in my life.
Officially done with schools.

I've managed to grab my honours, second class lower division that is.
First half of the year was rather forgettable. Ashton's birthday in April, did a photo shoot for NUH in march, went to South Korea in June right after my exams. My D80 got fried while on loan to Andrew but manage to salvage it in the service centre. Hit the car's butt for the first time, which is still not repaired. Finally got my iPhone, although the novelty has wore off already. Applied and employed at Apixels photography.
That's about summed up he significant events in 2010.

Still at Apixels for the time being, looking for new job now. One that's more serious and with a better package and with a better time schedule. Plans are on the way in the making, so 2011 will be an interesting beginning.

Another Xmas come and gone. It was a good Xmas. I've enjoyed a musical directed by Derrick at his church's Xmas service. Met lots of long lost friends and it's nice to know everyone is doing really well.
Some are chasing dreams, some studying overseas while some have great plans ahead
good luck people! Lets work hard together.
I've got everyone a give back home, giving feels better than receiving. I just regretted not being able to return more to those in need back in society. I need to improve on that next year.

Got Audrey a nice gift too, but I've decided against giving it to her after listening to something Lay Kwuan was telling me while we were catching a movie on Xmas night. She was rather disturbed by her ex boyfriend who's not able to move on while she already has. A very similar situation to mine. I've always ponder about this. I felt that by doing what I did, I was holding on to a hope. But I wonder how she feels. Guess it weighs more when this was narrated by another person.

I think this is god's way of dropping hints to me that I'm doing something wrong and should change in future. Which is why I've decided to keep the present this year round. I may not be able to move on nicely, but I should never hinder/bother/disturb her with my inability. It'll only leave a distasteful mark in life, something that I know but hearing it from someone else somehow makes more sense than my inner thoughts.
So I decided to keep the stuff locked up in my box of memories. Whether or not I get to meet her again in any circumstance, I should keep it to myself and set her free.

Life will only get better if you keep trying to improve it.
I believe I'll be able to make a good future ahead.

Time travel

Into the third month at Apixels, getting used to the work, irregular schedules, and the " interesting people ". The work place environment is good, no difficult person which I cannot handle. Still doing pretty much the same stuff after two months, which is not what I anticipated. Was hoping to be able to learn much more than the current level. What they have is experience which needs to be shared, but not so much yet. I can ask alot but without the experience, it's not enough, not happening fast enough.
Finance is tight. Got lots of bills to pay, more than half the salary goes to bills and parents' allowance. This is not the way to go. I need to be financially more stable to pursue a passion like this. Working for people to achieve this dreams is not going to allow me to support a family and be financially free.
I think i'm going to leave Apixels soon or later, probably sooner and go back to the finance sector, earn my capital so as to go after my goals. Everything revolves around money. Without it, everything is harder. I just hope it'll be a good closure to 2010, and a brand new start to a new decade.

Did some cooking for gatherings and received pretty good comments. It's a joy to cook for people and and they appreciates it. Hope for more this festive season!

Was watching Fringe season 2 White Tulip episode. It's about time traveling to correct a wrong, to save a love one, to erase a " regret " . Asked myself what I want to do if I've got such a chance to go back and redo something in my life i regretted deeply and something I can do better, the first thing which came to mind was year 2007. Go back to 3 years ago and start over from there. Many things happened that year. After I finish my NSF days, working at fortis, getting my first camera, meeting Audrey and of course my studies.
I wold want to establish strong contacts with the people at fortis, I would want to do more with my photography, I would want to study smarter and harder and most importantly, I want to treasure Audrey . I can go on and on about what/how I would have done better with her, so many things I want to redo, to make things work between me and her.

Time travel don't exist in my lifetime.
I can only imagine.
Hope you're doing well.