2010

another year passed..so quickly..it get faster every year..
new year resolution..
-graduate with at least a second upper..
-make more money..
-graduate trip to Europe..
-meet new people..make new frenz
-further my studies??
-i still want my iphone..
-be friends with her again..
-workout the body..
-eat less..
-have something memorable to look back to..

Sent her a Christmas card this year..went missing last year as i was working and everything was still in a mess..just wanna keep in touch..nothing much else..everywhere is crowed now..hope she's fine..

been busy organising meet ups with people..meeting up is good..makes me realise it's time to wake up my idea..haha..no more in school..need to start planning for future..the thing about future is you know not what will happen..if that's the case..then how to go about planning for it? everyone's going aboard..wonder when it's my turn..was rather shock to know one of my fren decided to call it quits here and go overseas for good..at least for now..to leave everything behind and go to a new environment..not easy..
Economy's picking up..hope it'll be good news for everyone next year..
I still don't see myself working for others..hmmm..strat a business then..lots of ideas..but lack the doing it...will see..
Ashton is starting to mumble stuff already..very soon he'll be calling daddy mommy..life is so simple actually..why do we complicate things when we eventually grow up...heavens should be filled with babies and children..only then there wont be complicate adults to complicate life..
need to look for 2 picture of him to contest in some cute baby competition..hmmm..gotta take more photos of my cute nephew then =)
Life should be simple..

Maybe i've been complicating things myself..should look at things in different perspective..maybe been looking at the complicated side of things..and everything just seems so impossible..giving up at times..i'm still looking for a worthy charity organisation to work with..was helping out at MAW..but things weren't what i expected..nothing wrong with MAW..just feel it's not a long term thing at MAW..

New year's eve programme really sucks..need to find some entertainment for now..

Happy New Year people..have a great one ahead..

一半

一直等 一个人 等了很久

这一场 独角戏 是很寂寞

春夏秋冬 我的窗口 只有风经过

爱很深 有多深 我也不懂

你走后 我的心 变得脆弱

听一首歌 也觉得痛

但我谁也没有说


右边的座位 右边的枕头

都已经空了那么久

为你守候 那是因为 我已经看透

没有你的爱 这个我只是一半

不哭了 不笑了

为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代 一个圆的另一半

我固执 的等待 等风再把你带回来


爱很深 有多深 我也不懂

你走后 我的心 变得脆弱

听一首歌 也觉得痛

但我谁也没有说


右边的座位 右边的枕头

都已经空了那么久

为你守候 那是因为 我已经看透


没有你的爱 这个我只是一半

不哭了 不笑了

为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代 一个圆的另一半

我固执 的等待 等风再把你带回来


只有你的微笑能让我心安

只有你的拥抱可以把我填满

只有你手里的那一把钥匙

能把心打开


没有你的爱 这个我只是一半

不哭了 不笑了

为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代 一个圆的另一半

我固执 的等待 等风再把你带回来

a trip down memory lane

a trip down memory lane on Friday brings back plentiful of memories from the now distant past...

strangers pack the streets..area revamped..same place new feelings...
what started out as something simple 2 years ago has etched a powerful image in my heart and mind..
things have changed..people have changed..I've changed..we all changed in the short 2 years time..

as much as you wanna keep things constant..the only constant in life is change..so we had to keep changing...keep telling ourselves all is well..as long as we keep going...

Well the thing about life is, it gets weird. People are always talking ya about truth. Everybody always knows what the truth is, like it was toilet paper or somethin', and they got a supply in the closet. But what you learn, as you get older, is there ain't no truth. All there is is bullshit, pardon my vulgarity here. Layers of it. One layer of bullshit on top of another. And what you do in life like when you get older is, you pick the layer of bullshit that you prefer and that's your bullshit, so to speak..

so I've chosen my layer of bullshit..and I'm gonna stick to it..and make it the truth everyone believes..

gonna get busy over the next few months..busy is good..shoots and school..lovely..

zesty

Been thinking about doing postgrad after this year..a degree is simply not enough these days..so was telling a friend if i manage to get my second upper..i'll try to apply for one in UK..so that'll be my short term plan...

weather these days really horrible..it's either wet or warm and humid...so looking forward to cooling days..scouted University of Bristol..looks good..partly because it says the entry requirement is a minimum of second upper class honours..which is still achievable..first class is of course beyond reach..

i'm bored..it's time for something to refresh myself =)

Confession

blogger has been giving me lots of problems..which explains the absence..

just gotten my results..not fantastic..but expected..at least the how much effort yields how much results theory works..so my First class is effectively gone unless miracle happens..can only aim for Second upper..hmmm..

gotten a new tripod..so will be looking to do more products macro and landscape..

a lot of things we put in effort..but that doesn't guarantee a result we'll be pleased with..like the food photography assignment i was hoping to land..even though i was rather pleased with the works i submit for selection..given the restriction i had..but it still didn't go my way..simply because i think they felt i'm not experience or qualified for it..fair enough..no hard feelings..but hard work don't give you success..so what matters is that we enjoy the process..
and this applies to many other areas in life..lesson is we should not always expect too much in return for our every effort..and take in the positives not just from results but also the process..

always felt i had this confession to make..i'm still thinking of her...

and i dun like to be made use off =(

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gone

haven't been blogging much..blogger seems to be doing some upgrading works..i've been busy with wishes at make a wish...this week shld be better..currently shooting a similar event to last year's Disney event..dunno izzet me or them..the first time always go wrong..
Saw Kobe Bryant up close and personal..really friendly..not what i had expected..
slowly starting to set up my photography biz and works..a simple website created..details will be update soon..photoplay blog is on the way..
slowly slowly making my way into the scene..

holidays are hard to pass nowadays..especially when my creative juices runs out on me..

when someone tells you not wait..do you keep on waiting?
a matter of worth it or not..but how do you measure...
somethings we can live with..somethings we cannot..
where do you draw the line?

i nid more assignment..so broke..